Come When You Are NOT Waiting

hemmm...
i don't knoe exactly how to describe the situation i'm having right now..
well..
at the moment i had wished for anything,, i didn't get it..

but at the time when i'm enjoying my life with any of it like now.. everything just come in!
i mean it!
they're come in into my life..

they just come at the time i stop to keep daydreaming of them..

hehehe..
just like God have HIS own time for me..
it just maybe.. i haven't ready yet with all the stuffs i asked.
but now, maybe i am settle enough to have all or few of them..

hem..
lovely,,, sometimes just enjoy your simply simple life and you'll get surprises!!
i mean it. coz i get them..
hahahahaaaa....

ust be relax n don't too ambitious..
coz too much ambition would kill u..
hahahaaaa...

well, even tough troubles come and troubles me, but they are still under control..
i love things under control..
heheee

well, quote for today..
relax, go on, and enjoy!!!

This Time Choosing..!

ini emang adalah saat2 yang paling tidak aq sukai..

memilih.....
yah... emang sih dari awal lu bisa mikir ndiri lu ntuh dah milih!!
hehe..
tapi yg aq maksud dengan milih adalah milih suatu hal yang berdampak untuk kelangsungan perjalanan hidupku yang entah dapet jatah brapa tahun...hahaha...

nope2.. I DO believe that GOD has give me ENOUGH time for me to live my life..
hem..........................................................

waktu aq diperhadapkan dengan hal2 yang jelas, all i gotta do is just go in a row which i wanna go..

tp saat aq dihadapkan dengan kenyataan bahwa that row suits u but not typically you...
well... ntuh lumayan memeras otak..

apalagi saat ada satu optional lagi datang menghampiri dengan wajah tersenyum lebar dan seakan berkata "hello... this is me you're waiting for..." bah...oldies amath.. hahahaha...

tapi emang bener kata2 dosen yang satu ini... sebut aja dosen X (bukan nama sebenarnya!)
yang bilang kalo semua masalah SUKA atau GA..!
yup!! 100 percent correct!

how good u are doin some kinda work, but as long as u don't like it..it won't be ur very best..

am I right??

tapi... tappiiii...
gimana kalo dalam usaha menggapai apa yang aq sukai itu ada halangan yang emang- untuk saat ini- masih tidak dapat dihindari..

jadi... aq harus berjalan bersama dengan apa yang aq bisa,,,bukan dengan apa yang aq sukai..

saat kita harus milih satu dari beberapa hal yang ditawarkan oleh yang kita bisa tadi... (bukan yang kita sukai).... apa yang akan kita pikirkan?
apa yang akan jadi bahan pertimbangan dalam benak dan hati kita?

apa yang akhirnya menjadi motivasi akhir untuk mengetuk palu 3 kali tanda the final decision has been made?????
well2...

i still don't have the reason til now,,,where I only got few days rest.....

sin...

one day when i attend a devotion at one church...
i got something important to be written down..


important because it's relevant to our life, ourself, well.. it's just about us!

about what did we actually do everyday, everytime, every minute , every single mind across...

well.. it's about the SIN.. 3 simple dangerous letters..

haha...

he said..about the steps we are drown into the sin..

first of all.... we have THOUGHT..
hoho.. who knows that all of it come from thought...

what we see,,come from the eyes and put down in our mind..
we think about it always and always.. our mind steer us to think about it again and again..

we think how, why, what, when, where, what, and all those stuff...

til then come the 2nd... WILL....
a will... man.... you'll never know how can a will drive your mind away, honey... hehe..

after we are trapped in mind of thinking about that thing..than come the will to make it! when the will come and take control... babe,,, then come the 3rd... ACT... yes!!
it calls the realization!
hehe...
a real prove of your thought..
and it's a hard part, coz it's already been done..
you cannot go back.. unless you just stop in 1st step, then we can stop it just in mind, throw it away and we safe...for now... hehe

when the act are happening.. hem...
when we gain all the great feeling and the great effect of doing sin.. than the next step in HABIT..
it become our habit..

because all the sin seems soooo great... and gain a lot of nice thing for us...this time... than, why should we stop doing sin that giving us happiness???

hohow....

after those things become a habit for us.. then.. we are HANDCUFFed in sin..

i mean it..

you are think about doing it,, you have a will to do it, and then you do it and feel great and try again and again and again and again..and it won't quit.. it won't let us go..
than..we are trapped in...

so....

quote for today is..
take a very good care of what you are think, what you are see, and what you are hear....

Pendidikan Moral Melaui Teater

well...
just like the announcement i have spread away before...
that we from Petra Christian University Theater Student activity held a THEATER WEEK event...

a chain of theatrical things did in 1 week. we got POEM COMPETITION on April 30Th, a SEMINAR AND TALK SHOW on May 2ND, and A THEATER PERFORMANCE "INSPEKTUR JENDRAL" on May 3rd....

well...
our seminar and talk show speaker is Mr. ADI KURDI cast as ABAH in Keluarga Cemara...

Theatre is a life..
it having an evolution...
from the stone age til now..
where now, theater no longer get the publican's interests..
they prefer to watch TV or Movie in cinema. but, actually, TV show and Movie is a modern theater itself.
and it's still okay..
the worse come when theatre as a place to presents our life, has become a tool to create money only! only look what's good now, what's hot now and bring it all on theater!

as a matter that theater is present our life.. and those messy and ugly thing could affecting people's mind and worst, their way of thinking and behavior...

imagine if that become a culture!!!

and so on,,, Mr Adi told us about the important elements in theater..
those are..
- script writer
- actor / actress
- music organizer
- artistic organizer
- producer
...and they all directed by the director!

in theater, we need ACTING...
including expression, soulness, and interesting...
we need these 3 things to enliven our acting.

MORAL..
is a commitment of someone to do what he believe is a truth!

one ho knows that this A thing is wrong, but still however, do it, is an Amoral person!

there 3 things that we need to develop in every man self..
they are.. FEEL, THOUGHT, AWARENESS.

FEEL
there are 2 potential things...EMOTION and SENSATION
emotion here such as angry, happy, disappointed, hate, etc..
it's all natural. you don't have to learn how to happy.. when you are happy, you just be happy at that time..

SENSATION
is a person's ability to give his trace of feel to others (so that one can get the feel that he wants!)
for example.. want to be loved.. how? acting childish, ask softly, etc.
and to do these things, we need to practice and learn! if not, it can be a horrible thing comes out.. and who will want to give you a feeling that you want????
hehehe..

if emotion and sensation are balance.. then, it's a great thing! we got the EQ!

THOUGHT
there are 4 potentional on it..
1. Logic
it's for knowing which one is right and not. it has to be developed well, so that we really know which is good or not.. not just we heard it for someone and take it as the real good thing!
2. Imagination
for the developed ideas. so we could be creative. not just stuck in one thing and one way
3. Memory
the one that can make us compare if we are better than before or not.
with memory we can remember all the things we've been through and take it as mirror to our self. Make a note!
4. Faith
make us not scare! n grow our believe feeling!

AWARENESS
no potentional in here.. it just come along itself in our self..

SENSATION+EMOTION+LOGIC=EMPATHY=SYMPHATY=SOLIDARITY!

FITNA

Hmmm..

one of this year's most controverting movie...

at first, I don't get either what this man actually means by making this kind of movie..

but, well anything happens for reasons..

before we yelling and shouting, and boycotting, and stuffs like that,,,
we should see what's exactly behind this...

emmm... according to his statement about this movie, I can say that he just doing what most people say..

I mean.. he made a realization of many people whispered..

but, well...
this is a global world..

maybe he should pay attention that this world is sensitive...

and

I am here just being NEUTRAL..

I haven't watch the movie yet..

so then, I cannot write too much,,,

It's just so interesting to me..

okay?

any other supporting or contra comment?

it's cool if we can have a great discussion, Right?

berat?

waktu lagi ngobrol2 sama Rama,, dia cerita dulu gimana dia terbeban dengan suatu jabatan atau titel yang harus disandangnya selama 1 semester tapi berdampak sampai seterusnya walau dia udah ga menyandang jabatan itu.

juga tentang beban yang harus dia bawa terus selama dia menjalankan jabatan itu..

bahkan, banyak yang mundur karena merasa jabatan itu terlalu berat dan bebannya terlalu besar..

ingat2 lagi tentang itu,
kadang aku merasa..
aku ga pernah merasakan sesuatu sampai terbeban banget kaya gitu,,,
bahkan di masa-masa UAS, dll jg ga ada yang jadi beban buat aku.....
that's why aku jalani hidup ini lempeng-lempeng aja..
dan thanks God..
everything's going fine......


hmmmm..

ini semacam penyakit, atau sebenarnya cuma sugesti saja?

need references

well... for about 4 months later, our Theatre from Petra Christian University will held a performance called INSPEKTUR JENDRAL.

this is a theatre play with a base theme about social issue n political things. hope you who interested in this kind of performance may order the ticket.

but actually, what i need is a references about the costumes!

this play set in 1945. in Batavia (now jakarta).

what i need is the women's costume (kebaya-1945), the jendral costume (batavian style a li'l bit western), the civil workers (bupati, postman, teacher, doctor @ that era)

well, hope you who are reading this blog could help me..

and I appreciate you A LOT for your valuable help!!

thanks a lot.